Miserable day

I guess everybody has a lousy day. Today happens to be mine. Consider the kind of news I am getting and the kind of reaction I am showing, I think I consider myself least disappointed. I do shed tears not because of what he did to me, but of how stupid I am. Thinking back, this lesson is not as bad as the one in Uni.... at least this one is silently resolved. Nobody really knows what is happening except for those who heard my recount and myself .. and of course him. Honestly, I am more disappointed than angry.. more embarassed of myself then sad. Now if I have that kind of feelings then it is good. Meaning my recovery will be swift.

I don't know if I should consider myself as a victim of this whole con or I should say I am damn stupid enough to fall for it. Yeah, the latter will be more possible.. after all, females can be stupid at times... maybe I am just one of them at that particular time. I should have suspect or known that something is fishy but I was too blinded by emotions.. there are so many evidence. But luckily, nothing else happen except for my wounded pride and my tender feelings.

Anyway, it is better to find out now than later. Now that I know he has been LYING all along from the beginning... then it is easy for me to kill him straight out of my life. I will keep quiet... no point talking about it anymore.. let this silent retreat be the solution. If I have to deal with him again in future.. I will with my head held high.. to tell him that whatever the foolish thing I have been thinking back then, I already swept it all away. I will not let it haunt me. I have survived the worst. This is just another bad dream. I will recover, overcome it.... besides I am not the one to be plague by the guilt of flirtations.

Thanks to those who cared for me.. may God bless you all. Like the saying, wherever God closes the door, somewhere HE opens a window. And they happens to be my window...